In 2018, I was married and struggling deeply. There was so much hurt, anger, brokenness, and disappointment. I knew of Jesus, but I did not personally know Him. I remember asking the Lord, “What do I do? I am so tired. I keep trying, but lust had taken over his mind, and it destroyed our marriage.” I also remember saying, “Lord, I want a new beginning. I want to go somewhere far away—somewhere with mountains.” As time passed, we ended up divorced. I carried so much damage and brokenness, and I looked for happiness in people. A little over a year later, the enemy sent a distraction—a relationship that made me feel many things that, in truth, were a great deception. That relationship added even more damage, heartbreak, and brokenness to what was already there. It also moved me seven hours away from home and family, all the way to Big Spring. But God turned it for His good. Two people from that person’s family became exactly what I needed: a sister and brother in Christ. One day, she came and asked me to read the declaration of faith. I could not get past the first part because I was crying so hard. They prayed with me and introduced me to Free Indeed Ministry. Then my brother in Christ read Gospel of John 1:1 to me, and it brought major clarity and an immediate hunger for more of God. Then the Lord said, “It’s time to pack.” I packed our home without knowing what the plans were or where we were going. I wrestled with my flesh and told the Lord, “If You want me to stay here, You are going to have to do it all. I am only applying for two apartments. If I get denied, I am moving back home.” He had me wait an entire month before I received an answer. During that time, I stayed in Free Indeed, listened to His voice, and obeyed. Then He began healing me—one area at a time. I felt led to be baptized and fully give my life to Him. From that point forward, I received blessing after blessing, healing after healing. I became a new creation. For the first time, I truly understood what love was, because Jesus gave me that and so much more. He was gentle and patient with me; He never rushed me. I finally felt whole. Life had meaning, and it became filled with joy, love, and peace. Today, I am blessed to be part of the Free Indeed ministry. The Lord has also blessed me with my soon-to-be husband, who loves and honors me in a Christ-centered way. I have had the privilege of witnessing both my daughter and fiancé go through Free Indeed as well, and I have seen the transformation in their lives. One day, as I was driving home and passing the state park, looking at the mountains, the Lord reminded me: “Here is your far away—and your mountains.”

I grew up in church, so I always heard about God. I knew He was supposed to be good… but if I’m honest, I didn’t really know Him, and I didn’t fully trust that He actually was good. For a long time, I was driven by emotion and constantly looking for validation—through people, through relationships, through attention, through achievements. Whether it was from men, success, or recognition, I kept chasing things I thought would fill me… but they never did. It wasn’t until I hit rock bottom during my first year of marriage that everything really came to a head. I realized the way I had been living wasn’t working—and more than that, it was empty. That’s when I made the decision that God’s way had to be better than mine. And He has been. Now I don’t just know God as my Savior—I trust Him as my Father, my keeper, and even my friend. He’s not distant to me anymore. He’s personal, He’s present, and He’s proven Himself faithful in my life. 

Jane Faber

Jane Faber